I'm here to update again.
A few things happened recently and they're too significant for me to ignore.
And this post will be kinda moody and emo but you don't have to continue reading if you don't want to.
Press ctrl+A to see.
(:


{ On Wednesday,in school,I received an SMS from my mother,saying that her uncle (my granduncle) passed away.
Even though I wasn't very close to him, the fact that you will never see this person alive is just painful and heartbreaking.
And when you think about it,you'll wonder when was the last time that you smiled or greeted this person.
Maybe when he was still alive, it never really mattered, but now, I'm trying to remember the last thing he said to me, what he looked like the last time I met him (which is the last Hari Raya) and other little things that would have meant a lot to me right now.

Besides that, when I was at the funeral, I realised one thing which really surprised me.

I realised that his 2 children (daughter & son) weren't weeping.

I mean, not that its actually necessary, but seeing as they've lost their father, they looked sort of prepared for it.
What I'm trying to say here is that they were really strong.
And it even sort of gave ME the courage & strength to live life to the fullest and to accept the way things are.

Even now, just thinking about it, I could already feel the emptiness in me if I were to be in my cousins shoes.
What touched me even more is the fact that my cousin could still joke with me, give me pointers on my exams, and even recommend salons for me.

Then, just as I was about to leave, I saw my other cousin lying on the floor, staring into space.
At that point, I was just beyond grief.
To think that he hadn't shed a tear just made me think whether I would be this strong if my father passed away suddenly.

I'm not emo by nature and I certainly don't cry easily but its times like these where you would think about what you want to do with your life and what you have done with it so far.
A good friend once told me that I ought to appreciate things that I have now.
Even the littlest things,like being able to breathe fresh air and see the sun everyday.

Thinking back on what I've done, I realised I have always been taking things for granted.
And I've come to a decision that I will change the person that I am right now.
I just don't want to grow up, making bad decisions for myself and regretting it afterwards.
That's just the worst thing a human can do.

And another good friend once told me that you won't know how a much a person means to you until they're gone.
So lesson of the day, start appreciating every little thing you have now and don't take things for granted.
Regretting is just not an option.
(:
}




End of my emo part of the post.
And a very long one for that matter.

Anyway,school's just been bullshit nowadays.
In fact, I only have band to look forward to nowadays.
My progress in studies are equivalent to the rate a grass grows.
And the worst part is that the grass will be chopped off when it gets too tall.
-_-
Digressing.

This week's "holiday" won't be a holiday for me at all.
Just merely a time for me to catch up with work.
GRRR~
Sometimes I really wish I was taking 3 subjects like a Primary 1 student.
And the best part is that I'll still have time to play catching during recess.
=D



Today was initially our 5th month.

I don't know why I'm blogging at this time and hour.
School starts in a few hours and I'm supposed to be doing homework.
But I realised that I don't understand Moments and Trigonometry,so I can do neither my physics nor maths.
And I left my stack of Bio worksheet in school.


How dumb. -_-


And,I got Physics test later and I don't understand a thing can?
Should be thankful Chem almost never have any homework cause I'm so blur lah.
I think I'm going siao.


Murhani is retarded and is going crazy~

I'm bored.
Its 3 hours before school and here I am.
Oh,I changed my fonts to small fonts.
Easier to read~
Haiz..
I should go back to sleep right?
Nemind,do finish survey first.
Copied from Weijuan's blog. x)

Survey~

1.Honestly what color is your shirt?
- Red
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
- Bad horrible saddening thoughts. :(
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
- Doing survey.
4. Honestly, have you ever been in love ?
- My horn counted? x)
5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
- Yeah. Not sleeping when I should be.
6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
- Yah. =X
7.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Adawiyah! =D
8.Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
- No.
9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
- Attitude,disrespect,ill-disipline.
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
- Right hand only.
11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
- No.
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- My friends?
13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?
- O.o Dunno.
14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
- Family bah.
15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
- ?_?

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?
- Throw tantrum.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
- Stole money... Regretted it. ):
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- Sister lohx.
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
- Yeah?
5. When was the last time you really cried?
- Last week?
6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- Yeah.
7. What usually makes you cry?
- A lot of things,especially a touching story.
8. Are you normally a happy person?
- Outside only?
9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
- They are my remedies. (:
10. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
- *blinks* ._.

Okay,one survey done. And blog updated. Won't be updating for a while.

Binomial Theorem test later. I've tried studying but I wasn't really absorbing ANYTHING.
-_-"
If I fail this test, it would probably be the 56920541784940114th A maths test that I've failed.
-__-"
If my memory doesn't fail me, I've only passed 2 A maths test in my life.
-___-"
I'm not kidding. I really suck. (Gha Gha: Laughs)
-____-"
Sian~

Hope you get the message. I'm suffering.

Was supposed to be blogging yesterday but I was too tired.
So I'll blog now. =D

Yesterday,band ended quite late and we played A LOT of boring songs.
And I got home late because SOMEONE couldn't open her present. -.-
But I don't blame her.

I'll let the pictures do the talking.
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1)Nice cake,but too sweet. =X 2) Gaga running away from Melissa Tang's fudge fingers.

Many layers later... ._.
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A Snap card & a small birthday card. =.= [laughs]

So other than Olga's advance birthday bash,nothing much happened yesterday.
Except for the Bio test which is soooo....[dots]
I either REALLY WELL or REALLY REALLY BAD!

TODAY, I had swimming with the class.
I didn't know that sucked at swimming till now.
And the instructor kept teasing me. [diao]

Anyway, my Maths common test was after school.
It was.......... No comments~ o.O

Then after that, stayed back for a while for the Study Hall preparation thing.
Was supposed to do some traditional dance thingy.
And I didn't know I sucked at dancing too till now. -.-
[Actually that was an understatement. My dancing is horrible~]

So before I end just wanna say THANK YOU TO MY DEAREST GAGA FOR THE WONDERFUL WONDERFUL GIFT!!

I love it lots & lots & lots & lots!! ; D
AND I LOVE GAGA LOTS & LOTS & LOTS & LOTS~

Kay. Stop here. Shall blog soon. Tatas~

You're just a distant memory now. I'm on the falling edge.

PERFORMANCE!!

Hey!! IM BACKK!!! (x
After my long long long long hiatus.
And now my internet is working again! Yay!
And PRAY it won't go wrong again.
2 months without internet is so painful.
T.T
Anyway,this is just a starting post.
Shall update with something SOON.
Hopefully by tomorrow,cause its my FIRST performance with NIESB and I'm not sure about half the songs in the repertoir. =S
Wish me luck! ;D

P.S: I've reset my links. So you have to relink me for me to link you. (;